Wow, I never actually thought I’d get to a spot in my life where I could write that as a title! I have actually signed up for my very first half marathon! I am going to run 13.1 miles in February at the Publix Half Marathon in Melbourne Florida. That feels not only amazing to write but also scary as all get out! I can’t believe that I actually am going to do this! I have been a runner for a while… I use the term “runner” lightly because I really couldn’t run more than half a mile without getting winded and just plain exhausted for the LONGEST time. It really wasn’t until I started recognizing that my diet was mostly to blame for most of my issues in life that I was finally able to run a little further and a little longer.
I changed my diet and did a Whole30 now here I am able to run 4-5 miles easily. I have even completed my first 10k (6.2 miles). Running is my retreat from the world. I plug in my headphones and I leave behind my worries and cares and just be me. It’s my time for myself (usually, occasionally I run with my husband or father-in-law) but it is still my “me” time. It is one thing that I do for myself, just myself. I like to listen to music that keeps me at a certain pace/beat so I spend a lot of time putting together my running playlists.
I spent today on my run reflecting on just how far I’ve come in my fitness/health journey. I spent YEARS feeling horrible, not being able to exercise more than 20 minutes, not being able to run a mile without feeling like I was going to have an asthma attack (I don’t have asthma, just felt like it), feeling like I was always a sweaty mess… Now, I’m at my lowest weight in over 10 years AND I’m going to run a half marathon! How crazy is that?? I always thought that I was just meant to live a life with all those issues but I learned how to harness motivation and use it to my advantage. Motivation is a tricky thing. It can be great but if you don’t harness it correctly, you can lose it quickly!
Working out and eating healthy is a choice. Not an easy one, if you ask me! I think the main reason that we quit exercising is that we don’t see results quick enough. I went 3+ months of exercising 5 times a week before I really saw any results. Let me tell you… those 3 months were tough. They were grueling, frustrating and downright sucky. BUT you have to go through that part to see the results! The results are not the reason to do it though because we are constantly changing. The reason to do it is different for everyone. Some of my motivators are my anxiety and my daughter. I’ve written a post before about how anxiety is a huge struggle for me. It’s been one of the most debilitating factors in my life. It’s the voice that tells me I can’t do something or that I need to stress out about something, or that I’m really not good enough. It’s the knot in my chest, the “what’s holding me back.” I finally got myself to a point where I knew I was going to lose everything in my life if I didn’t get rid of it and I knew that meant I had to get help. I got on some anxiety meds and then that little voice got quieter and quieter and I was finally able to hear the motivating voice behind my anxiety voice. I started listening to my motivating voice and I changed my diet and I started accomplishing so much!
My other reasoning for running a half marathon is my daughter. I want to show her that women are strong. That her mom worked hard and accomplished her goals. I want to show her that although there were setbacks and opposition, I still ran the race. The other way that my daughter is my motivation is that heart issues run in my family. My grandfather had many heart issues from heart attacks, bi-pass surgery, pacemaker, etc. My dad had a heart attack around 6 years ago and it was quite possibly the scariest day of my life. I thought I was going to lose him and that’s never a feeling I want my daughter to experience about myself or her dad. I want to be there for all the important moments. I have to take care of myself! Pushing my body to handle more and go further is going to allow me to be around longer.
Do you have a reason to get healthy? I would be willing to bet that there is a reason for everyone. Let me know your reason for exercising in the comments or what your reason would be to start getting healthy!
Until next time!